yesterday was the last day of school. in the morning, ama, pauline, weeshen and wing all pakat and gave me and joyce a big surprise. Ama gave me and joyce 2 big big cardboard, there are very very nice, and touched, but frighten by ama 1st, thus i didnt cry out....hehe....; After that, weeshen gave a piece of small card( compared to ama gave me de, is very very small) hoho, joke lah, i so touched.... i have known so many dear precious friends~~~ !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I was very happy in the class, as i afraid when i quiet then i will cry ~~~.

Our dear science faci let us off at about 12pm, so good~~~, but i got things to do, thus they took many picture without me lah~~ T-T~~After that, we still took many picture with Celest~~ our beautiful faci~~ woh~~ so nice, she is really realy pretty lor~~ love her so much~....

After that, me, joyce and Wing, went to canteen eat liao, then went to my hostel~~, Wing gave me some cans~~ so good sia~~ thks wing.... After wing went home, me and joyce chat until fell asleep. Joyce said we always chat until fell asleep de, ahahahaha~~after that, ama came, then we chat chat, and walked meet, pauline,chye wei, and ili.

After that, we went to SAKURA to eat buffet as our dinner together. Pauline, me, joyce, ama, ili, prabhu, alex, weeshen, chyewei, wing, yitfang and justin, we ate together, me eat until wan to vomit ahh~~, we took picture, played, very fun. After that, we went to NYDC as joyce helped her friend to dapao (illegally).... and also wing accidentally touched pauline's breast ler... hohohoho, wing ah~~~, then prabhu, justin, wing and alex, leave earlier.... when i saw them leave, i cried... cried... i so sad.... time past so fast, wan to separate... i miss them~~ ....

Pauline and joyce came and comfort me.... but i really cant control. when ili hug me, then i cried more, i feel i really cannot control liao... then later pauline hug me... i cried like hell, i dun wan to separate... i dun wan~~ so malu and paisei, but i really feel bu she de, i afraid we will walk further and further~~... and thks wee shen for ur tissue and thks yitfang for ur shirt~~...

After feel better, we play water at takashimaya there, many ppl looked at us, but we dun care, we pour at each other~~ haha, all ppl kena~~ no one can survive, except ama and joyce... they use lemonade to threaten us~~, hoho...... we played until 11:30pm... then we walked to mrt station to take train... but laopo took BUS home....

In the train, our ppl slowly slowly left... very very sad... when ama left, i cried again... stupid izzit? keep on cry, like cry bun~~ ... then my darling yitfang sent me home... so touched and maybe this was the last time liao... next time, u wont send me liao, u will send another girl liao, haix~~ T_T.... Thks a lot.... u always send me home~~ muacks~~ . on the way i cried again~~... haix...

When reached home... i took a bath and replied sms, and paste the cardboard(ama gave de) on the walk... so nice~~~ muacks ama~~~ .... i could not fall asleep lor.....dun know y~~ keep on review our memories~~~. I wont forget~~. love u all so much~~ So, now i am having a headache lor~~ hahahaha.....

Just now when to open a POSB account... my own account... not bad sia~~~ so miss u all~~

Today is the 1st day of school holiday, dun know y i feel so ..... haix...My school holidays has been packed of many many things liao~~~ haha and haiz~~

And also sorry shiqi , u always invite me, but i am always packed of work, thus i cannot go wif u all... so paisei~~.... thanks~~~

First of all, i would like to thanks everyone for concerning me and give me those guidance. Thanks.................
Sorry.............. Until now, i am still not able to solve it and feel very confused what i am doing.......
I am tired, really tired~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

I am going to love myself.........but what am i doing?? i am make myself fall into a big drain~~~~~, what happen to me?? Maybe too tired, and think too much... when i can stop it?? Tired and tired....I love myself as i still live in the world

Love ??? i dun know... i am too tired to love someone, i have not more energy to love anyone as i want to help everyone to be happy, protecting everyone's happiness has used all my energy... as i love everyone.... i wan to love some specific person, but i dun dare, i am too tired, i dun hv the energy to take the consequence... Forget about it....

Recently, keep on ponteng... feel not bad, but what i am doing, i dun know................ maybe it is the time i am growing up bah~~~add oil bah everyone...

Dun know y... today quite excited.... but suddenly moody again......... mood swing very serious ah~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

Stop it lah~~~ very tired liao ... why i bcome like that?? Why??? so bad, so lousy ler, but i must try to love myself~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

Today went to school liao, finally decide to go to school liao... ahaha. i made the tuna sandswich for joyce, ama, yishan, jinying, and cindy. Hope they will like it. I like to see people eat the food i prepared. They said nice, thks... even if u cheat me, i will feel happy as u try to eat the food..
Finally, joyce come, if she dun come ah~~ then i will ahem ahem her, hoho...

Lunch time, i ate western food, really not nice lor, somemore i put the cheese powder for yitfang, but he dun like it... so sorry yitfang... paisei....i dun know...
And also the food is too small, not enough lor...........hai.... Next time dun eat that liao~~ hai....

Dun know y so excited, now so tired so xian so moody~~~... paisei everyone.....

Last Friday, Saturday and Sunday, i went to the Leadership Training Camp...
It was really great, i love it and also i learn a lot of things. We played games, we chat, we learned, we listened, we expressed ourselves, we found our true goals, we know each other more. I cried yesterday as i really bu she de to separate with them........
I love u all..............
Edward, cheeyuen, haoren, sunchao, ravi, simon, andi, yuhui, anthony, xiaochuan, alex, calvin, gozilla, vicki, chen ai, yishan, chingching, meimei, yuzhu, xuling, akary. I love u all~~~~~~~~~~ ISC i love u~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ i am sure that we will reach our goals.......i am sure that we will be respected by others.... Proud of u guys~~

I cried, i moody all because of u guys.... i scare all back to school, we will change back to normal~~~~~~~~

Must believe~~must have attitude, must have amplitude~~~~~~ add oil guys~~~~~ love u~~ Muacks and love myself~~.

1st should say sorry to everyone cos my hostel no connection, so seldom update. And also thanks for wee shen that remind me update my blog~~ hoho.... So i think i will have a long long blog~~ paisei ah~~

8th of august~~
That day was great, i went to watch fireworks with many people, and so romatic ler..... if the guy beside me is my bf, how good ler........but he is not..... i wish i can watch with my bf next year... hoho... stupid wish...
After finish the firework, i went to find my W26G friends at melion there, very nice ler........ take a lot picture
9th of august~~
I went home, ate dinner with my parents, played with my puppy, i love that kind of life.... actually, everyday i dun dare to stay alone at hostel, cos i will miss my home, miss my past... and somemore, i dun dare to call my dad, cos i afraid i will cry........
Useless.......hai........Suddenly feel sad....homesick again...

9th of August~~
Went home... miss my parents and puppy... miss my home...
Ate dinner with my parents and played wif my puppy... i wish my life can be like that all the time... i feel tired, very tired....... i miss my home...........

10th of august~~
today maths was very difficult lah~~~~~~~~ VB VB VB VB hai~~~
after class, go to hv meeting with anthony~~~ discover that there are many thing too rush and need to buy... After that, went to weichao's friend house, they were christian and we played game and sang song and chat... knew many friends, there are friendly and nice...
I feel happy about that~~ Thanks wei chao, and nice to meet shiqi... nice to meet u all~~
After that, went home alone and took a cab went to hostel...
Vert tired, but still go to on9 at W4... and chat chat chat...
At the same time, also accompany cindy with thomas...
They are.....dun know also
Many things occur... but dun know how to say...
1st is my best friend, joyce, i cant even help her.......... i really bad really really bad........
When she needs someone, i cant even help her.........
So sad...................................Sorry, maybe i should leave............
2nd.................
3rd...............
Cannot say~~~~~~~~~~~~hai~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

11th of august~~
now is in the class, today team with justin, ernest and JIN~~
I am slacking ~~~ slack ~~ slack~~ very tired and sian ~~ maybe holiday mood and maybe last nite sleep too "early" le bah~~~~~~~~~~~~~
SO sorry for my dearest team mates...........
Today's faci is different... not bad but dun know y just feel sian~~ the strange feeling remains~~ hai... hai.. later wan to go camp liao... feel so sian and miss my home and parents, puppy and my bed~~.... sec school anniversary is reaching soon, but i am not able to attend cos the camp.... very tired lah~~ too many things to do with....
Hai, strange feeling remain.............. sometimes i feel really useless, i cant even help my best friend and somemore i think i am totally useless when doing things. very very sian very very stupid..... Somemore, i even cannot understand myself... what i am thinking... y?? y so suddenly change my mood?? what make me feeling like that, even this i also dun know.... useless....

So sorry that i post so late as just move into the hostel and its wireless network has been activated...

2nd of August...
That day is really an unforgetable day in my life. I swear i wont forget in my life except i got memory lost. Ok, that day we have a very drama day...After one week of hardship and acting, finally reached my birthday... The surprise you all gave me, i wont forget...hoho
Dun know how to type out, but the memory in my heart and brain will remember all the time.
After playing in the class, we went back to my hostel, we took a lot pic and play... they said my place very nice...hahahahahaha....but i still hvn really used to the bed and the place.
After that, we went to town to makan. We went pass NYDC, we went to the billy bxxx, sit there and take away two milkshake.. and went ... hoho, the waiter there is really really handsome ler....
After that, we went to youth park and ate a lot of things...hoho.. so on we WALKED to esplanade and play and took picture......very very beautiful and fun.........hahaahahahahah...
After that, my gantei chyewei and my darling yitfang send me home, so touched thks u 2, muacks x 1000.
W26G... i love u.................hoho................

Moreover, on that day, i hae received many ppl greeting thks a lot. Chuixuan, Da tou, cindy, guigui, ocean, ai gee, maggie, zhongchen, yong shen, kahfei, leader, rachel, qiao qin, si siang...
and my housemates...and yishan,eggy, ching ching, meimei, haoren, andi yishan, xuling, chen ai, ronny, li heng and so on bah~~~~~~~~~~ thks muacks~~~~~~~~

Last Saturday was Interpoly BBQ....
Very very nice... and very happy........
We BBQ and play and chat~~~~~~~~~~~
Then i have another new name called " Xiao Mei " liao~~~~~~~~
Hoho...
Nice to meet Kah Bite, Zhi qiaong, likai, leader(head/shit), hwee luen, xiaoran, yong sheng.....
They are really good people~~~~~~~ very excited~~~~~~~~~ hahahahahahahahahaha
Muacks~~~~~~~~~~~~~ everyone.

Recently still the same, the pau on my head still hvn receovered!! cry~~
My life still the same...
My friendship with her has over...
I really did nth....
So i dun care liao~~ i wan to live with happy...

So now i am happy, really happy~~~~~~~~~~
Thks ama, pauline, alan, mei mei, ching ching, chee yuen....
Love you all~~~~~~~~~~~muacks~~